Mick smiled at his phone. Mercedes social media accounts show that Lewis has arrived at the track.
He stood up from his seat and took the paper bag he had prepared.
Mick hummed happily through the hotel hallway and headed straight for the paddock.
Arriving at the paddock, Mick heard someone calls his name. Turning around, he saw Sebastian walking towards him. The older Omega hugged Mick without hesitation. Mick returned the hug happily.
"You look happy." Seb said looking at Mick who kept on smiling. Mick chuckled and shrugged.
"Yep, because I am." Seb couldn't hold back his purring hearing Mick's enthusiasm.
"Yeah? What's that?" Before Mick could answer Seb's question, his eyes caught a beautiful, elegant figure not far from where he stood.
"Oh, Seb. I'll tell you about it later. I have to go!" Mick said then jogged, leaving Seb confused.
"Oh? Okay then."
***
"Mick!" Toto walked over to Mick. It was clear he could smell the joy and enthusiasm in Mick's scent.
"Hi Toto. Can I meet Lewis?" Toto immediately smiled at that.
"Of course. But he still had a few things on his schedule today. You can wait for him at Mercedes hospitality."
Mick was surprised to hear that.
"Really? can I?"
Toto shrugged.
"Of course. You have my permission. But try to notify the other staffs who are there if you're going in or out. You're a member of FDA after all."
Mick's smile widened, if that was possible.
"Thank you so much Toto."
Toto patted the younger Alpha's shoulder.
"Don't let them know I give you special privileges, as my favorite pup."
Mick laughed. Toto waved, walking away. Mick waved back.
***
Mick walked towards Mercedes Hospitality. When he walked in, people didn't ask him anything. They just said hello and noded to him.
Mick has come to Mercedes Hospitality more than once. And they know that Mick has full permission from Toto. So it was no longer a problem for Mick to get in and out of the Merc's Hospitality.
Mick decided to wait near Lewis' driver's room. Mick was so happy to be sitting here.
Here, he can smell Lewis' lavender scent coming from the driver's room.
Not long, several voices were heard approaching. Mick prepares to meet the person he's been waiting for.
"Hey, Mick!" Mick stood up. He turned around, his face and scent instantly brightened with happiness. Realizing that, Lewis chuckled. Then Bono gave Mick a slight nod, and left the two alone.
"Hey, Lewis." Mick answered trying not to be nervous and too excited.
"Been waiting for long?" Lewis asked as he sat down next to Mick. Mick sat back down following Lewis.
"Not really. It's always fun waiting for you anyway."
Lewis laughed again.
"What is it? You came here right away when you found out I'd arrived?"
"Of course." Mick answered quickly.
"Here. I bought you some food you wanted."
Mick handed him the paper bag he had been carrying. Lewis received it and immediately looked at its contents.
"Really? This is all for me?"
Mick nodded.
"I couldn't buy you the big one because it would be too flashy."
Lewis chuckled, then took a cupcake from the bag.
"Cheat food is simply the best." Mick nodded in agreement.
"But Lewis, you said you wanted them in the interview. They'll know that I will bring you this, and you'll eat this right?"
Lewis shrugged.
"No problem. I don't have many cheat days anyway."
Mick smiled happily again. The food he bought and prepared made the Omega in front of him- Lewis, look and smell happy.
"Then don't worry. I will always bring and provide whatever you need and you want."
Lewis smiled. A faint smile tucked in guilt.
"I have to go back. And you still have things to do on your schedule, right?"
Lewis nodded. "Thank you Mick. I love it so much."
Mick rumbled hearing that.
"Bye. I love you, Lewis."
After that, Mick turned and walked away. Lewis sighed, putting away his half-eaten cupcake.
'I love you.'
Is the word Mick always saying to him lately. At first he was surprised. But as time went by, he got used to it, and no longer blushed or was embarrassed when he heard it from the younger alpha.
×+×
It all started at the dinner that night.
Seb invites Lewis to come over for dinner with Kimi, Charles and Mick.
The dinner was very enjoyable, and memorable. How Kimi - who always seems cold, teaches Mick some things how to be a good Alpha with gentle and caring tone. Well, he's a pack alpha after all. So he has dad's instincts when he sees the younger alpha.
Mick got along with Lewis right away. They talk about many things. Lewis tells how the pack grid in F1 works. Mick was happy to tell that he was used to being a member of the pack since he was little. After he turned 15 years old, Mick started to become a pack member in the junior series. That's why he didn't find it difficult when they put him in the F2 pack grid.
Lewis was amazed to see how the younger alpha carried himself. Mick is still relatively young, but his words and gestures are pleasing to the eye and comforting. Makes anyone close to him feel at ease.
Likewise Mick. He doesn't hide the fact that he greatly admires and likes the older omega. How his eyes glowed with life as Lewis recounted his experience as an omega driving the fastest F1 car ever.
Or when his eyes glisten in annoyance or dim with sadness when he hears that some people still underestimate Lewis because he is an omega, even though he has proven that he is more than worthy of being in the sport.
Since then, every chance he has, Mick has always tried to meet him. Mick is always more than excited when the F1 and F2 races take place at the same circuit and the same time.
***
At first Lewis thought it was cute. He felt happy to be able to make the younger alpha so excited just because he saw him.
Everything changed when Mick came to meet him at Mercedes hospitality.
Lewis was sitting back relaxed, having finished his schedule for the day. He would immediately go to the hotel after resting his body for a bit. Lewis frowned as he watched Angela escort Mick to meet him.
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Mick couldn't calm down in his room. He kept thinking about Lewis and kept weighing whether he should do what his instincts told him to do right now.
At the end he gave up, and obeyed his alpha instincts.
'After all, in the end, the most important thing is I've tried, and tried to express it.' Mick said determinedly.
Finally he changed his clothes and headed to Mercedes hospitality. Mick runs into Angela who is chatting with other team member. The Beta immediately noticed Mick approaching. She smiled, and waved at him.
Mick gulped.
All right, this is it.
***
"You can talk to him for a bit. But not too long. Because he's exhausted after a long day." Angela said patting Mick's shoulder. Mick nodded in understanding.
"Thank you. I'll make sure I don't disturb him and don't take up much of his time." Angela smiled and motioned for Mick to follow her.
Mick repeatedly regulated his breathing which somehow felt strange.
When he was only a few steps away from Lewis' driver's room, Mick immediately felt calm and relaxed. He smelled the soft scent of lavender from the direction he was headed.
His doubts, nervousness, and fear disappeared, now they were replaced with determination and a strong sense of confidence.
Angela knocked on the door, then heard Lewis' voice on the other end, inviting her in.
"You have a guest." Angela said as she walked into the room. Lewis looked up from the phone.
"Hey .. Mick? Whats up man?" Mick smiled, then went into the room.
"Okay. I will leave you both. Make sure you are back in the next 1 hour to the hotel to rest."
Lewis looked at Mick, they exchanged smile.
"Okay .." He replied. Not complaining about being treated like a pup.
After that Angela left the room.
"Mick? Come sit wherever you like." Lewis corrected his sitting position. He sat facing Mick.
Mick smiled and thanked him. He forced his head to work normally because now his head was distracted by Lewis scent that filled the room.
Of course, because this is Lewis' driver's room. He spent a lot of time here. So that's why this room has a strong Lewis scent.
"Sorry I disturb you." Mick said starting the conversation. Lewis shrugged.
"No. You're not. I'm just relaxing a bit before heading back to the hotel." Mick nodded, can't hide his excitement.
"Okay, so .. there's something I want to talk to you about." Lewis nodded, looking at Mick seriously.
"I- uhh.. do- do you have time after the race?"
Lewis frowned. Mick's visit at the driver's room was strange enough. And now he's asking if Lewis has time after the race.
"Well, if the race results turn out as expected, at most I'll be at Mercedes party as usual." Mick nodded.
"Okay. How about after the party? Can I meet you then?" Mick insists on stealing a bit of Lewis' time.
"Sure. I'll invite you to my room after everything's done if you want."
Mick's eyes brightened.
"Thank you! I'll wait for your updates."
Lewis chuckled.
"Okay. I hope you won't get any trouble, then?"
"No. Its okay. Rene said If I have to go, then I'm excused to go."
"Wow. Such a privilege."
Lewis raised his eyebrows, and then they laugh.
***
As discussed earlier, after Lewis attended a party with his team, he notified Mick by sending him a message telling him his room number and letting him know he was back in the hotel room.
It didn't take long, after Mick replying, 'Okay. I'll be right there. In a minute.'
Mick appeared in front of Lewis's room, knocked gently on the door while sending a message to Lewis that he had arrived in front of his room.
Lewis opened the door, flashing his shining smile. He looked tired, but tired in a good way. He won another race this week. Really amazing.
"You come. Come in." Lewis shifted to give Mick a way. Mick chuckled and walked into Lewis' room.
"Of course I'm coming. I've been waiting for it." He said without thinking. Lewis chuckled too. Mick put a paper bag on the table.
"What's that?" Lewis asked, then moved closer and looked inside.
"Something sweet. I think you need it."
Lewis laughed, he opened the package. Two colorful macaron boxes inside.
"Woah, where did you get them? Do you even have time to buy something like this?"
Mick chuckled.
"I always have time for everything related to you."
Okay. Those were the words that made Lewis snapped his neck, looking at Mick so fast. There was no strange expression or hidden purpose in his words. His smile, even his scent was neutral.
Finally Lewis just chuckled and sat down, then took a macaron, and ate it happily. Unconciously Mick's chest rumble seeing that.
"Thank you." He said while munching his macaron.
When Mick realized that his chest was rumbling, he immediately covered his face in embarrassment. Lewis chuckled and picked up another macaron.
"So, what do you want to talk about?" Mick cleared his throat, then looked at Lewis seriously.
"I like you."
Mick said suddenly. Lewis' hand that was holding the macaron stopped in midair. Lewis looked at Mick, then put his macaron away.
"Sorry?"
"I- I like you, Lewis."
Lewis chuckle.
"Thank you. That's so-"
"No. No. I really like you- I- Ahh! I messed this up aren't I?" Mick scent instantly changed to sour. Lewis immediately realized that, and tried to calm the young alpha.
"Wait, wait, no. You didn't mess anything up. Say it slowly, and calmly. You have as much time as you need. I have no schedule tonight."
Mick raised his head, looking at Lewis who smiled gently.
"I- Okay." Mick took a deep breath and then looked back at Lewis seriously.
"I like you as an alpha to an omega, Lewis."
Lewis' eyes widened, shock clear on his face. But after hearing that, Lewis came to understand what had happened all along.
"I- Mick.." Lewis tried to calm down. He still hadn't come out of his shock.
"You can answer it later." Mick said quickly.
"Answer?" Lewis asked, Mick nodded.
Lewis paused for a moment, then sighed.
"Mick, I think you're misinterpreting of what you feel." Lewis began his words softly. Instantly Mick's face filled with disappointment.
"What? What do you mean?"
Lewis wanted so badly to comfort the alpha in front of him, he couldn't bear to see Mick who look like a lost pup.
"Wait, please calm down. I didn't mean to doubt your feelings. I'm just trying to help you straighten out what you feel."
Mick didn't answer. He just looked down, rubbed his face, then looked back at Lewis.
Lews sighed.
"Mick, I think what you're feeling is admiration."
Mick frowned.
"You admire people who are older than you. And that's perfectly normal. We've all liked someone at some point just to find them so cool. And usually that feeling will disappear with time."
Mick sighed.
"Lewis I'm not a kid. I can differentiate the feelings that I feel. My liking for you is different from my liking for Seb. It's true that I find you guys so cool, and I admire both of you. But for you, it's more than that. I love you Lewis. Have my feelings not reached you after all this time? After everything that happened?"
Lewis silent, he looked down. Feeling guilty for saying such a thing. Mick really looked hurt and sad because he questioned his feelings like that.
"Mick .."
Lewis tried to look at the alpha in front of him again.
"Mick, I really appreciate how you feel about me. I'm very glad to hear that. But I'm already so old, I'm not in the stage to playing with love, especially with an alpha as young as you. I see you F2 drivers as pups. I- I'm really sorry, Mick. I can't return your love."
Unknowingly, tears rolled down Mick's cheeks. It made Lewis really surprised.
"If you want proof that I'm serious, I'm ready as fast as you want me to court you. Any time."
Lewis bit his lip, feeling touched, sad, and guilty.
"No, Mick." Lewis sighed.
"You're so young. You have a lot to learn and achieve. You can court an omega after you've achieved your dream, once you're ready, once you feel old enough."
"I'm old enough." Mick was adamant.
"If you feel old enough, you will understand that your feelings for me are momentary. When you go to the next stage, the more people you know, the more kinds of people you know, you will forget me."
Mick sobbing. "I will never." The answer is confident.
Lewis sighed. Now his eyes are teary.
He couldn't lie to himself.
Every time he saw Mick, a small part of him always hoped that Mick would notice him, smile at him, even greet him with that angelic smile.
When Mick asked for his time to talk about something, that little part of him, the part he didn't want to admit was wishing, that Mick would talk about something like this.
But despite all that, Lewis was still very surprised by the fact that Mick turned out to be exactly what he expected.
Mick happily waited for him to give him a sweet treat, Mick immediately congratulated him after winning the race, Mick immediately cheered him up, assuring him that everything would be fine, and he had done his best, if the race didn't end as expected.
Lewis was surprised that his liking for the younger alpha was reciprocated.
Lewis screamed in his heart. Trying to resist, bury, hide its true contents.
He couldn't. He can't.
For Mick, for him, for both of them.
He can't accept Mick.
Mick can't end up with him.
"Okay." Lewis said. His voice choked by the tears he was holding back.
"If that's the case, if you really believe in your feelings, I'll be waiting for you in F1."
Mick looked up again.
"If you still like me in F1, after everything you've been through, after everyone you've known, then I'll try to accept you."
Mick's eyes flashed a glimmer of hope again.
"If you're already an F1 driver, you're old enough to court someone, and I can start trying to see you as an alpha, not a pup."
Mick wiped away the traces of his tears.
"You promise?"
Lewis paused, then nodded confidently.
"I promise."
For the first time since confessing his feelings, Mick smiled.
"Okay. I will try my best to reach F1. I will prove to you that my feelings are not just admiration for people older than me, or fleeting feelings that can be quickly replaced. I will be an F1 driver so you can see me as an alpha. Not a pup."
Lewis couldn't hold back his tears anymore.
He quickly removed it roughly, then nodded.
Lewis kept reassuring himself that Mick would forget about him after he met the omega that matched him.
The thought hurt him a bit, but it was for the best.
Mick found the right omega, then forgot about him.
Starting to court the omega he loves, just like he wanted to do with Lewis.
Everything will be fine. Mick will soon be happy when he finds the omega created for him.
Lewis convinced himself that Mick would lose, and broke his promise to keep loving Lewis until he becomes an F1 driver, until he can become an alpha in Lewis' eyes.
What Lewis didn't know was that the crush, the love, and all the feelings Mick expressed were real.
And the promise he made was an oath that would bind him.
"Okay. Wait for me, Lewis. I'll court you as soon as you realize and accept my love."
Lewis couldn't help but smile at that.
×+×
Lewis stared at the cupcake in front of him, his tears unknowingly falling.
After that night's talk in his hotel room, Mick's treatment of him had not changed at all.
He's even more open to showing affection and more comfortable approaching him in front of other people.
The conversation that night was like a green light, like permission, like an agreement from him for Mick to like him, more than that, love him, more than that, crazy about him.
Even though he doesn't want to admit it, even though he would rather lose a race than anyone else to know this, he admits that during his lifetime as an omega, only Mick was the one who really treated him so well, so tenderly, so appreciatively, and loved him so much.
Mick always makes him a priority, Mick always puts him before himself.
Mick always does anything for him, without expecting anything in return.
Mick is the purest alpha he has ever known.
Mick is the most perfect alpha he has ever known.
Mick is the alpha which is far beyond his reach.
Mick is the alpha he doesn't deserve.
Mick is an alpha that doesn't deserve an omega like him.
Mick deserves better.
Mick deserves the perfect omega as much as he is the perfect alpha.
Mick is an alpha that wasn't made for him.
After all the doubts and uncertainties that surrounded him, Lewis was sure only one thing was certain.
That he could never have Mick Schumacher completely.
And it's not just a feeling, but a necessity.
Mick can't end up with him.
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